An Essay on this Writing Life of Mine

     I am a poet and a blogger and I have never found the world more colorful and clear than when I am writing. My writing hasn't changed me, but it has changed how I express myself, how I communicate. I tend to confuse my words, describing a feeling as a sound or a taste as a smell. Through my writing, poetry specifically, I can explain what I am trying to say that "a broken heart is the sound of a red hot needle, it pierces the air and leaves a burn that sits in the nose of passer-by's". As a blogger, I find that poetry is almost a world away, especially with a niche like a hodgepodge of geekdom. But I still express myself, but it is the language of my viewers. It is more direct with energy and long run-on sentences. The difference between my poetry and my blogging is that I try to convey something in poetry and I let my thoughts become my words when I blog. I feel the poetry needs to be understood and that is what makes it poetic, my blog is my viral self and, like in real life, no one has to understand me.
     As a writer I have my strengths and I have my kryptonites. I find that my strengths are in trying to describe things you can't touch, describing feelings and thoughts and memories that can't be reached. I personally and very attached to my more whimsical and imagined poems. My kryptonite would be just the opposite, the more concrete my poetry gets the more I find faults in it. But, of course, that doesn't stop me. While concrete writing might me more rare, I still try to incorporate it in my writing. Yet, I find that even when I start off being concrete, I do a complete 180 back into abstract.
     As a writer I plan to continue my writing, especially my blogging. I don't know where it will take me but it is all about the journey anyways. It is the journey you write about and the anticipation of the destination. That is where I find my muse, in the abstract. I like to write about how it feels to love someone in the moment that your eyes meet and you see something new in them that you never saw before. I like to write about the anticipation of a kiss in the body-rocking heart beat that leaves you seeing stars. I like to write about how I feel, and I don't believe there are words that are capable of really capturing feelings,  certainly "happy" or "sad" could not even being to try. So, I believe that a feeling can only be described my a moment, that the abstract can only hope to be defined by the concrete. But I often have the tendency to confuse my abstract and concrete only because I see them as the same, they are both a feeling that I can touch.